This is a fucking serious toppic.
I honestly dunno. I know there's something beautiful about marriage but I dunno if I would get married (or having a family, nevermind the papers or the civil status) in the near future because it fucking scares me
because on the one hand I'd really like to have a child, be a mother and have a man at home for me and ONLY for me, to take him breakfast to bed, to treat him nicely

and to spoil ..
but on the other hand, I also have a selfish side and I don't know if I would give up my dreams and crazy plans to turn into a housewife. THAT IS what SCARES ME- the housewife thing, I think I don't fit in that role.
I dunno... the only thing I know is that I don't want to have an ordinary, common life. I've never liked simple things