You know, Derrick, it takes a lot of guts to just come out like that.
Yeah sure it's an online forum where you'll probably never see these people-- Maybe a concert if Axl ever finds a replacement for Mr. Finck
But seriously dude, I respect that.
Personally, I'm a regular ol' heterosexual white male. But this is kind of a tender subject for me. For years, prime high school years, I was a pretty obese dude. And I don't necessarily look feminine but, there were many times where I was mistaken for a butch.
I had it, and I lost a TON of weight. I'm like 180-190 depending on the week, and it's strange now. I'm pretty athletic despite my unsightly left over fat-- But I'm like playing catch-up. So it's very awkward taking women out. I'm just an awkward guy in general.
But I just get a ton of jokes thrown at me from "friends." Comparing my weight loss to that of a victim of AIDS-- People saying I have a "gay face."
It's pretty crushing to have like at least 4 different women tell me they thought I was gay, when I met them. i don't care about gays doing their own thing, whatever, but it's like oh great--- What the hell am I cursed with, that keeps steady girls away from me.
It's tough, whatever... I get it all of the time, and whatever... I feel just fine with "acting gay" by saying Oh there's an attractive guy, oh he's a great actor, blah blah blah. I'm perfectly comfortable. I used to get the teasing in school too. I had no idea what I did to warrant it. I didn't go around looking like Robin Finck.
Any dude that says he hasn't had a homosexual thought about another man is a fucking liar. It's inevitable. Just by hearing of it, images will be sprung into your head. I don't care for the images. I have no urge to act on the images.
At the end of the day, I long for a classy woman. There's no dispute here, but it seriously is tough and maddening to be mistaken for a gay man every where I go.
I'm sorry if I offended anyone in anyway, by the terms I used, but I just had to throw my story out there. And in a world of ridicule, it's courageous to stand up and shout that your different.